Happiness. . .

Happiness is defined as: a state of well-being and contentment

I ask my self all the time what would make me happy? Nothing about my life rii now makes me wanna get up and face the day. I work to pay the bills/live, i eat to live but i dont live for anything. the only thing that has ever made me happy is music. I'm on this journey to find myself. to understand me...crazy thing is im scared to open up doors to all my hidden secrets...especially the shit i try to hide from myself. im afraid of what i may find. or not find. I know that i have a fear of failer and a fear of success. im afraid to die and not leave a legacy, im afraid to try and fail, im afraid to try and end up overwhelmed with more then i bargained for.