I think im gettin closer to my moment of clarity. . .

Disclaimer: I'M HIGH OFF VICODIN! so if anything doesnt make sense thats prolly y. . .

I started seeing a therapist last month because i needed to know if its me or them. I needed to know if how i feel regarding everything i endure is unreasonable. I also needed to know if im fighting for all the right reason. I have allowed ppl to make decisions for me for most of my life. What ever they thought was the best way to go was what i did. I'm tired of submitting to other ppls expectations of me. I'm tired of doing what other ppl think i should do instead of what i love. I'm tired of feeling like i have to please ppl in order for them not to throw me away like a rag doll. Ive been so scared to be me because i have been made to believe who i am isn't good enough. I have set in my mind that it is time for me to work towards being who i want to be instead of what ppl expect from me.